The benefits are also the challenges. I enjoyed working alone, but it almost broke me. It’s impossible for me to know how much of it was due to the pandemic, but working alone in the past three years was incredibly draining. But also very rewarding.
Working alone is very productive at times, because there are no disturbances, no meetings, no conflicts. It is great. Also my productivity levels vary a lot. There are weeks where everything just falls into place—I don’t even have to try. And then there are weeks where nothing really happens. I tried a lot of productivity hacks trying to learn to be steadily productive. But it made me miserable. It just doesn’t work for me, and that’s okay when working alone. One of the biggest learnings of the past three years was to accept these phases and lean into them. If I want to work 14 hours straight because I am in that wonderful flow state, I allow myself to do that. And if some days later I sit down and nothing happens, I stop and go outside to do something else to refuel. There is no boss watching my hours, and there are no coworkers that need to contact me at certain hours. This is the biggest upside of working alone, and as long as I have that privilege I will take advantage
of it..
But as much as I enjoy being able to be flexible and make my own decisions, it is very draining to have to decide everything. Always. There is something called decision fatigue that I had to learn to manage! The hardest part is to recognize the issue. In the end, I marked the tasks that needed decisions and tried to spread them evenly over a week to avoid having to decide too much on a single day. I kind of understand the people now who always wear the same outfits to cut back on daily decisions.
Even though I worked alone, I must emphasize that I had a big group of supporters without whom I wouldn’t have been able to complete the project. My family, professors, and friends had my back, providing feedback, testing, and keeping me motivated throughout the development process.